Monday, December 28, 2009

Bidding Adieu

As the year draws to its logical end, my mind is coerced into a realm of introspection and self-analysis. I am intrigued..I am excited..I am numb, and yet at the same time, prepared to rewind the course of my life and relish the flashbacks of the last 365 days that got added to my life span.

There are things that I want to know, there are answers that I still look forward to, there are regrets that I so want to get rid of, there are people I so want to be with and there are memories that I totally want to do away with.. Likewise there are people that mean so much to me that I just cannot afford to imagine life sans them and, there are ones that I now regret knowing! There are moments that I wish to wrap tenderly in some solitary closet of my heart, there are secrets that I still want to unburden, there are desires that I wish to fulfill and there are dreams that I want to weave into the fabric of my life.

2009 brought a whiff of new experiences! Adorned my life with outrageous new dimensions. There were moments that simply took my breath away, and there were moments that were a little to painful to endure. There were new arrivals, and there were painful departures. Happiness rained from all corners of the world, yet anguish din't seem to leave me away. Countless rounds of tears and laughter walked in and out of my life. College got over, and University life embraced me into its arms. Hundreds of new memories and moments filled my photo albums. A number of acquaintances were transformed into friends, and a lot of friends got transformed into buddies for life. The leftover memories of 2008 finally left my bereaved soul, and a whiff of fresh life welcomed me into its arms.

My mood swings amused me in the most unexpected ways! Yet in the end, positivity ruled supreme. Thousands of new lessons adorned my life. Each day cultivated and cultured some valuable learning in one way or the other. Thankfully, there were a lot of people who amazed with their out-of-the-box attitude towards life. I'm thankful to God, for letting me come across many such people this year.

There were moments and memories of 2009 that I would want to vent out here, but not just now..Till then, adios!

Saturday, December 19, 2009

Random Ruminations!

Here comes another wryly realistic outburst!

I was just wondering the other day, that why is being 'insensitive' considered 'just-so-cool' in the contemporary times?

Any answers?
Any one?!

I'm really intrigued to know your say on this one.

I just loathe people who believe in leading a life of I-did-it-my-way types!!

Thursday, December 3, 2009

Occasional Ramblings!

Off late, I have realized that almost 90% of people on the face of this earth, fail to respect and reciprocate the feelings of others. And an even larger number fail to express their heartfelt thoughts and emotions at just about the right time!

Do they even realize how torturing it is for those, who don't fall into such abuser categories?
Let me just put it upfront! Its painstaking for ultra-sensitive and emotionally weak people like me, who literally thrive on lighter things of life viz. feelings and emotions.

The feeling of not being 'understood' or being 'misinterpreted' or 'taken for granted' is just about one of the most miserable experiences that one can go through in one's life! Furthermore, the feeling of not being understood 'the-right-way' is so damn harrowing that I probably, would fail to put it into words...

Friday, November 27, 2009

In the End, it doesn't Even Matter!

She is happy!

happy to be alone
happy to be cursed
happy to be abused
happy to be rebuked
happy to be forgotten
happy to be scoffed at
happy to be neglected
happy to be all by herself
happy to have been cheated upon
happy to have been relegated to the backdrop
happy to have lost the sense of belongingness!

In the end,
she is still happy to be 'who she is'!

That's why I say,
"In the end, it doesn't even matter!"

You Taught Me the Meaning of Life!

I had been sailing on the waters of life
like a rudderless boat bereft of its direction
until my eyes chanced upon you one fine day;
relishing the hard hitting rains on your wobbling legs
trying to capture the heavenly bliss in your twinkling eyes.

I saw you getting drenched in the exquisite beauty of that fond moment
collecting a handful of rain drops in your tender fists
the divinity of nature reflecting immaculately in your innocent eyes
the bliss of the divine blessings radiating their aura,
on your admirable face

Enamored by the vivacity of that tender moment
I retreated to my inner self,
resuming my journey towards self exploration
with a never before zest and ecstasy!

A Nostalgic End!

Isn't it amazing how life never fails to surprise us with its topsy-turvying circumstances?!

Strange, I tell you, are the ways of life.

So, with this I would like to pour my heart out on a recent experience that touched my heart in ways more than one! Finally, after a whirlpool of thoughtful decisions and ambiguities, my stint at CueBlocks came to an end. CueBlocks was my first job ever! I joined it sometime in May this year, May 11th to be precise.

My stint at Cue gave me a world of memories to remember and cherish all my life, I met some of the finest people in the world during my sojourn here. I got to know some real good people, whose memories and goodness would remain etched in my heart for years to come, Nosheen, Pancham Sir and Deepshikha di being the prominent ones!

Friday, November 13, 2009

A Wish!

Broken ties of unfathomable love,
still nestle hopes of
reliving the glory of the
cherished times together.
Together or not,
memories would always
bring us together as,
"friends till eternity!"

Saturday, November 7, 2009

8 Marvels - About Me!

It's been about some months since I reverted to any of the tags, dropped in by friends and fellow bloggers. Time to be on my toes.!

So, here I am trying to wrestle with this one. This tag requires me to spill beans on some interesting facets of my persona. Huh! Lets see.

8 Favorite places to eat:
  • Sitting on the grass
  • Roadside corners
  • Stu-C (Just can't resist this one)
  • Fancy restaurants
  • On long drives
  • Anywhere in the campus while bunking classes :-)
  • Relishing sumptuous dinners prepared by dad at home
  • Anywhere on a free treat. I'm in for it any time :-)
8 Things I want scientists to invest:
  • A Time machine (Wish I could go back and mend the wrongs done)
  • A mind reader
  • Wireless laptops
  • A virtual library (to satiate the voracious reader in me!)
  • A friendship meter (lol)
  • An anti-aging medicine (Gosh!)
  • A flying car (I'm too sick of the burgeoning traffic!)
  • Any anti-depressant drug (to keep my spirits high all the while! Lol)
8 Phrases I use often:
  • As if!
  • Get over it ya.
  • Forget it! (Dare you laugh, Crankster!)
  • Come on!
  • Ways of life (Megha, who knows it better than you?)
  • Are you crazy? (Tanvi is just so sick of this one.Lol)
  • Easier said than done!
  • Nothing much :-)
  • Whatever!
8 Things I love about Winter:
  • The mistifying fog!
  • My black jacket.
  • Rainy winters
  • Catching up with friends over cups of hot chocolate
  • The warmth of holding hands
  • The very feel of winters
  • Stuffed paranthas and nans :-)
  • Cozy blankets
8 Things I am looking forward to:
  • A lucrative career
  • Marriage (Did I just say that?! Lol)
  • Ardent blogging
  • Compiling a poetry book
  • Delving more into literature
  • Exploring all the continents before I die!
  • Learning professional photography
  • An unwinding holiday destination in the Himalayas
God! I am tired tickling my brain cells. Time to take a nap!

Currently playing - 'You're beautiful' by James Blunt.

Let my Blog say it all

I happened to read these lines somewhere,

"Life is not about the times that you BREATHE,
i'ts about the times that TAKE YOUR BREATH AWAY!"

Kudos to the author! What an incredible way to putting the real essence of life into perspective. I truly second his opinion. Indeed, life isn't just about leading a life of humdrum monotony,living everyday exactly like the day before.

As far as my take on life goes, I believe in leading a life of retrospection and reciprocation. I know I might sound a bit too intellectual or philosophical at this point of time, but trust me that's not what I'm trying to project. I've been a fun-seeker all my life or may be more of a 'seeker'. I don't feel embarrassed at all in confessing that I still indulge myself in Cindrella dreams, at the age of 21. As if this isn't enough, I still believe that dreams do come true after all! Having said that, I would also like to add that I've had my share of extreme dissatisfactions as well. Time and again,I've been jolted out of my illusionary dispositions. But hey, that doesn't stops me form dreaming again! Does it? or should it?


I still yearn for more dreams, more such moments that would perhaps, 'take my breath away'. And thanks to Almighty's grace, there have been many till this very juncture.I would love to ponder and delve into them in my next post, now that I'm back to blogging! I just hope that the unbridled passion that is flowing in my veins keeps the momentum going :-)

Blogging! Nothing like it!

As I look back and think about the months gone by, I am gripped by a sense of achievement and amazement! It has exactly been a year since I dedicated myself whole-heartedly to this blog.

Needless to say, it has been a hiatus for my emotions in the true sense of the words. I guess, life wouldn't have been that easy had I not surfaced my inner conflicts at this place, time and again.

This blog stood by me in times, when I needed an emotional buffer the most! It came up as a surrogate mother, with whom I could share all my trials and tribulations effortlessly. It came up as a true friend who stood by me through the roughest of circumstances. At times, I found myself wonderfully amazed with the emotional solace that came my way through this blog. It was through this place that I got to meet some of the most wonderful people in my life. Exploring blogosphere has been an out-and-out experience in itself!

I sometimes rue the fact, that my hectic schedules don't give me the privilege to pour my heart out any longer. But that doesn't stop me from loving my blog all the more further. I miss this incredible place like anything! It has been a Saviour in the true sense of the words. And probably, nothing ever would stop me from documenting the highs and lows of my life here.

Thanks, Nostalgic Reminiscences!

Saturday, October 10, 2009

The Parting Words!

We met, joined hands
shared our lives,
became a part of them,
and now its time, to bid adieu.

We made memories,
filled the photo albums,
shared our darkest secrets,
giggled over cups of coffee,
exchanged friendship bands,
laughed and cried together,
and now its time, to bid adieu.

We held hands,
cuddled beside each other,
wiped each other's tears,
brought smiles to our lives,
made them all the more,beautiful
and now its time, to bid adieu.

We stood by each other,
through the sickest of circumstances,
sailed through the rough times holding hands,
arrived at the threshold of womanhood,
and now its time, to bid adieu.

We stumbled over at times,
nursed each other's words,
learnt from such mistakes,
made silent moves together,
towards a better tomorrow,
and now its time, to bid adieu.

We weaved dreams,
rectified our faults,
mended the broken hearts,
meant the world to each other,
celebrated the times of our togetherness,
yet now its time, to bid adieu!

Thursday, October 8, 2009

Cheers to the good times ahead!

Since its the Friendships' month, the flavour of posts on this blog is bound be 'Friendship'!

I just love this picture. It captures the essence of friendship in a beautiful way.

I dedicate this picture to all my friends. Old, existing and new!
Since my old friends have been mentioned on this blog a couple of times. I now take the priviledge of enlisting the neames of a few of my new ones. The wings of our friendship have just started fluttering, and I believe that we'll travel a long way together, and plant countless cherishing memories in the years to come.

This one is for you all - Pooja, Shubhda, Navkiran, Kriti, Karan, Manpreet, Sumedha, Varuna and many more!

Friday, September 25, 2009

Unsaid Emotions!

Hi folks!

I know I haven't been posting regularly off late. Time to be on my toes!
Anyways, today's post is dedicated to a very close and an extremely special friend of mine, Bistriti!

I met this amazing girl just a day prior to my Birthday this year! Little did I know that the Almighty had been planning to gift me something really special this year, by enlightening my life with her frequent presence. She is a charmer! She is a seeker!
She occupied an immensely special place in my heart even before I could know it!

I look up to this incredible girl, for reasons more than just one!
She is strong, independent and self-made! Not to forget, she is not just beautiful, she is someone who is no less than an embodiment of inner beauty in abundance.
I've seen her getting through the worst circumstances of life, in the best of spirits. I have rarely seen her getting bogged down so easily. Her relentless passion and thirst to compromise over nothing but the Better, catches my attention and admiration almost every single day of our interaction!

I probably got to learn some of the most interesting and useful facets of life through her. Her practical and serene approach towards life just makes me go gaga over her!
She has been leading her life on her own ever since I've known her, inside-out! She has been a power-house of limitless passion, unsurmountable zeal and immeasurable tranquility! She doesn't easily gives away even to the sickest circumstances of life.

Despite staying away from family, all by herself, I have rarely seen her going astray! She is one person who exactly knows her destination in a crystal clear manner, and is striving in lieu of attaining it in the shortest span of time!

I just want to wish her good luck for her future endeavours!
I sincerely hope that you scale greater heights of success and prosperity with each passing day of your life, Bistriti! You have got to achieve loads in life!
I just want you to know, that I would be there, always!

Sunday, September 20, 2009

I'm Back!

Hey chums, I took me around a month this time, to show up with a new post!

Sincere apologies for that. A lot of things have been keeping me preoccupied off late. But yet again, I couldn't just resist my urge of reverting to this self-made paradise of mine!

Things are showing signs of recovery at the univ campus! I'm having a ball of time exploring the univ life with friends. Oh! I can't even begin to tell you how much we enjoy doing this. We are a group of 5! I, Manpreet, Pooja, Navkiran and Kriti. There are others who show up once in a while and become a part of the mob:)

Its truly amazing being a part of this mini-world of ours! We share, we talk (endlessly), we frolic, we dance, we sing, we get drenched, we go crazy, we cry, we explore, we tease, we eat like gluttons, we study, we bunk lectures, we go insane, we fight??. No, we NEVER fight!
We manage to do the whackiest of things, with such ease and perefection that we surprise ourselves every single time with the outstanding results!

I just hope that the journey gets more lovelier and livelier with the course of time!

Thursday, August 20, 2009

Missing 'Life'!

Hey all! Don't get carried away with the title of this post!

I'm not going to bore you with my unending rants and ramblings. In fact, this time I'm going to 'torture' you with a confessional post :) And that means, in case if you're in a good mood at the moment, don't just squander away your joy by reading this trivial piece of my mind!

I happen to be a little low today. Why not? I guess I've every right to feel the way, I'm feeling at the moment! I've just been out of college, and have entered the big world of a university. Regardless of the wonderful time that I'm having in the univ, I'm being paranoid by constant fleeting thoughts that happen to cross my mind haphazardly!

Life in the univ is no doubt, exciting. Yet, in my heart of hearts, I still nestle and nurture countless clandestine memories about my just-lapsed college life! I miss my so-called 'former world'! I miss my friends, the warmth of whose arms held me through all these years of graduation. I miss my teachers who added some valuable facets to my personality with their never-ending warmth and affection. I miss my not-so-organised and oh-so-adorable graduation life! Trust me,I really do!

I end up missing just about anything and everything concerning my college life. And I miss my friends like crazy! It's just so disgusting, to see the people with whom I shared three beautiful years of my life, drifting away to distant lands and dreams. Most of us have now taken up diagonally opposite professions. We've all opted for varied streams in far corners of the nation and the world. The everday-bond that had been connecting us for the last years of our lives, has gradually begun to lose its lustre! Yes, and it just bleeds my heart to see my world crashing down so mercilessly!

My life has been topsy-turveyed brutally! I no more hear from people who just a few days before, meant the 'world' to me. My cellphone is no more brimming over with their text messages. Their life is no more intertwined with mine!
I so miss our times of togetherness!

I so miss having Kanika by my side, patienly listening to my neverending bakbaks. I miss Nur, the 'tweety' of my life like crazy! I miss Deepika's giggles that forced me to smile,even in the sickest of circumstances. I miss my oh-so-cherishing talks with Rucheera.
It breaks my heart when I feel their absence in my life.

Wish I hold time, and brick back the magic of the former days!

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

Friends forever! (Dedicated to Kanika & Nur)

The times of togetherness
might not return,
the symphony of the celebrated moments,
still rings in my ears,
makes me think of you,
time and again!

Random Tits-bits!

My heart still reeks of the memories
that stay embedded
in the deepest recesses of my heart!
Wish I could ever unlock them
and make them see,
the light of the day!

Saturday, August 8, 2009

Life,on the Move!

As I sit back and enjoy a day off in my sweet home, I am perturbed by a few fleeting thoughts, that keep haunting my mind every now and then. I feel still, as I close my eyes and lie down in retrospection. Its funny, the way my life has taken a 360 degree twist in the past couple of days. Life had never been so unpredictable and uncontrolled. I feel as if I am being weighed down by the surprises that lie in store for me.

I miss the times that I used to spend with myself! I miss being alone. I miss the late night meditation sessions. I so wish if I could still continue with my diary-writing regime. I so earnestly want to hang on to my nocturnal creative writings. I miss the times that have been left behind! I miss the times when I immersed myself into retrospection.
Somewhere in a corner of my heart, I also miss being around my old chums! I miss Kanika, Pooja, Nur, Deepika, Rucheera, Swinky so badly! I miss their pamperings! I miss the loving bonds that we shared. I miss their warmth and comfort.

Life at this juncture, is like a helpless leaf floating in the sea breeze. It doesn't knows its destnation, it doesn't knows its source. Yet, its regrets being carried away by the strong tufts of wind. I know the life that I am leading at present, is a figment of my doings! It was me who had willingly opted for this life. It was I who wanted the things to go this way. And I am very much making the most of it,yet ...

I don't know,
"Life is just Perfect, yet..."

Sunday, August 2, 2009

Memory Snippets!

Its Friendships Day today!

As I opened my eyes this morning, a smile spread on my lips as I noticed a Cadbury's chocolate lying next to me on the white bedspread. Admiring this beautiful gesture,I starightaway jumped out of my bed in lieu of thanking Mum-Dad for this overwhelming surprize. Tears of joy welled up in my eyes as Mum folded me into her arms wising me Friendships Day. What a brilliant way of kickstarting this special day!

In fact, I had almost drowned in the deluge of nostalgia that had set in last night, as Friends from all walks of life began pouring in their wishes on the eve of this super-special day. My heart kept skipping beats as I continued keeping a count of the messages that adorned my cellphone. Isn't it just amazing when you get to hear from all the special people in your life, in one go?!

Memories clouded my eyes as I finally retreated to bed around 02:00 AM. It was a strage sensation revisiting the sands of time, and getting drenched in the unforgettable memories of friendships that had embellished my life, through thick and thin. I was overwhelmed with the nostalgic reminiscences that transcened me into my childhood, school and college days. Once again, the 'child' in me came to the forefront.

I have so much to share on this topic that I will probably loose count of the time and space. Before I strike another keynote in the next post, I would like to mention a few names who literally 'made my day' in the true sense of the words with their warm wishes and sweet remembrances. My heartfelt gratitude to Dipika, Kanishka, Niharika, Anuradha, Gagan, Navneet, Shubhda, Pankaj, Zoya, Bistriti, Nosheen, Maninder, Tanvi, Arsh, Raminder, Kritika, Nur, Aesha for sending over such cute wishes. They will be safely nurtured in a corner of my heart, for years to come!

By the way, Anshita, Megha, Nishant, Manmeen, Pooja, Amarbir, Charanjeev, I am still at the waiting end???!

Saturday, August 1, 2009

Friendship, and beyond!

On the eve of Friendship day, my heart goes out to my web of friends scattered all around the globe. Memory snippets flash into my mind as I am struggling to come up with the right words. It is indeed a tough task, describing the essence of relationships through words! Giving dimensions to them, would demean their very sanctity and aesthetics.

Friendship, one of the greatest gifts of Almighty bestowed upon the mankind, deserves no explanation!

I can't even begin to tell what difference has this term brought to my life! Trust me,when I say that my life couldn't have been as 'liveable' as it now is, had 'friends' not been an integral part of it.

I am falling short of words in describing some of the best facets of friendships that changed my life forever, for the better!

Just want to say,
"Thanks you chums, for adding a dollop of love and blessings to my life."

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Still Moving On!

Hi peeps, just dropped by to remind you all that I am still ALIVE!

Yes, very much, indeed! But, just a little preoccupied:(

The last couple of days have been brutally hectic. To say that life has been a complete roller-coaster ride wouldn't be an exaggeration. As of now, I am still 'trying' to enjoy my stint at the University campus. Trust me, Punjab University campus isn't as chic as it sounds! The lecture halls are atrociously erratic. The crowd just doesn't matched upto one's expectations. To add to the miseries, the blistering heat leaves no stone unturned in practically ruining one's mood to the core! I still do not feel at home being a part of this prestigious university. But just the very fact, that two of my best buddies, Megha and Tanvi are also a part of the same territory peps up my mood, every now and then.

On the home front, things are as exciting as they could be! We've just moved to our new home and life is getting more and more lovelier and livelier with each passing day. I am still in awe of my new surroundings. Its truly incredible. Home has been never so blissful ever before!

All right! So, this is it for today!
I am a little hard pressed for time right now. Would continue with my rants and ramblings some other day:)

Tuesday, July 14, 2009


Its been almost 45 days since I saw you last. I know it has been a long time but trust me, I still feel your 'absence' almost every single day.

No matter how rarely I keep in touch, I do miss you like crazy from the bottom of my heart!

It suddenly seemed so uncomfortable, when I din't see you around me during the admission procedures for the Post Grad today. I did feel hollow somewhere deep inside my heart. Everyone inquired of your whereabouts, and then the nostalgic finally set in :(

I know that you're still at the waiting end!
I'll get back to you, once life resumes its normal pace. Trust me, I would! Till then, keep missing me:)

Hey Tweety, Missing you silly!

Thursday, July 9, 2009

Yay! It rained!

God! You're tuly amazing!

Thanks for blessing my city with some wild rain showers this morning.
Trust me, I couldn't have asked for more.
Finally,it rained! It rained like crazy. It rained like hell. Wow! It rained!

I wonder what's so amazing about their aura, that the very thought of "rains" makes me go crazy! I feel an undefined whiff of freshness exuding from within, everytime it rains. Needless to say, Insanity takes over me while it rains harder. Guess rains have been a childhood crush, right since I was born!

The 'child' in me overpowers the 'woman' in me everytime it rains! Though the expression 'woman' sounds a little wierd, I mean I am just 20 turned 21:) Anyways reflecting back on the flavour of the post, I am so in love with the weather today! I wish I have had a chance of getting drenched in the rains though. I so regret enetering the office right at the juncture when it started drizzling outside. And to add to my frustration, the stupid rains gathered momentum within minutes of my arrival. What a setback!!!

So, I was left with no other option but to get 'J' standing by the window and watching the passers by enjoying the intriguing rains. I felt so low, so deprived! How I wish, I could have been one of them. I would have left no stone unturned, in relishing the essence of these long-awaited, mesmersing rain showers. I would have gone insane splashing handful of droplets on to my friends. I would have had a good time jumping into the puddles with bare feet. I would have loved sipping my favourite Kaapa Nirvana, while out on a passionate spree under a flowery umbrella. Oh, what fun it could have been!

Aww! I just hope that I somehow get to enjoy my slice of happiness in these maddening rain showers. Rains, you got to be with me on this one. Lets have a great time together! You know,
"You, me and us" kinds:)

Fleeting Thoughts!

I truly believe in a popular tagline,

"A lot can happen over coffee!"

I wish it rains, sometime soon!
Nothing can beat the feeling of getting drenched in the rain like crazy, and then rushing to CCD with friends to grab a mug of my favourite, Kaapa Nirvana.
Rains, Coffee, Friends, Conversations ----------> Life!

Rains, I'm still at the waiting end!

Monday, June 29, 2009

Embedded emotions!

So, finally with the declaration of my Graduation results, my 3-year long association with MCM came to its destined end!

Hmm! Yeah,probably!

Though I'm still at a loss to get drenched in this reality. I wonder why this crude reality din't hit me hard as a rude shock as anticipated...?
Why am I being so indifferent to the memories of countless good and happy times that I spent there?
Why am I not getting jitters thinking of the tough times that made me undergo an unfathomable transformation?
Why am I being so apathetic to all these?
Am I going insane?

Oh,no! Not again! No more!

Sometimes, time plays havoc with safely-embedded memories and emotions!
Yes,it does! Big time!
Guess in my case too, time has spilled its magic! It has made me fall in love with an all-together different life, amidst a new environment brimming over with numerous new and unfamiliar faces. As I firmly believe, time is a Healer!
It has taken away those dreary memories that once brought tears to my eyes.
It has helped me get over those filthy memories that once ruined my mood, and deterred my spirit.
It has blessed me yet again, with a zeal to survive and come out victorious!

I'm so happy that I'm getting over my past and embracing my present and future with a new whiff of dreams and aspirations.
I'm looking forward to a new life! Yes, New Life!
New life in a new home, in a new city, in a new university, in a new workplace with new faces and new experiences around.
Frankly speaking, I don't feel rudderless or directionless any more, and that's reason enough to celebrate,I suppose!

Friday, June 26, 2009

Ever wondered how different life would have been,had we been different from our present selves?

Had we been bereft of any of the essentials that complete us as an entity?

Do you think life would have been unrelated or you wouldn't have just cared to bother?

In case you haven't ever given it a thought, spend some quality time pondering over it. Trust me, you wouldn't regret channelizing your time and energy meditating over this sensitive issue!

Though, be prepared to be jolted out of your romantic dispositions in the very first brush with reality!

We all love ourselves. Don't we?

We look-up to ourselves in some way or the other. No matter how often or rare we acknowledge this fact, but somewhere deep inside our hearts, we really admire ourselves for a zillions things unsaid and unheard!

No matter how rough life gets for us, yet given a chance to change places with someone else, we wouldn't really appreciate the idea. We would rather choose to enjoy a tumultuous roller-coaster ride of life's ups and downs that would come our way, than putting ourselves in someone else's shoes! Wouldn't we?

Then why don't we apply the same principles in our behaviour while dealing with an immensely sensitive strata of our society, People with Disability?

It was a recent session on Disability conducted at my workplace by our very own, Norliana that moved me to silent tears of disgust and humiliation and urged me to come up with this post.

Despite bold claims on the part of humanity of according a fair and just treatment to all the classes in the society, a predominant streak of bias and inequality runs through its length and breadth. Lets accept it outright, that these towering claims fall short of seeing the light of the day in ways more than one!

We are yet to accept and embrace the crude reality! We are yet to embrace the so-called People with Disability with open arms and welcoming hearts. Whether we confess it or not, somewhere down the lane, knowingly or unknowingly we tend to look down upon them with elements of pity and sympathy! Don't we..?

Out of pity, we tend to offend our disabled fellow beings with uncalled-for aid and assistance. We often push ourselves to such an extent that we almost invade their privacy and in turn end up making them feel incapacitated or incomplete..

(to be continued..)

Sunday, June 21, 2009

A dedication to my Daddy dearest!

Yay! Its Father's Day today..The entire blogsville is blooming with special dedications to fathers' around the globe..I just couldn't resist myself in pouring out some of my cherished memories with my daddy dearest!

This one's for you, Dad!
I know it would be really silly to say these tried and tested statements that 'you're the best dad in this world', ,'the greatest father of all times' and so on and so forth.But what do I do Dad, when these are the most appropriate words that ring in my ears whenever I think of you..

Trust me, I wouldn't have been who I am today, had you not been there..had I not been born to you..had I not been a part of this lovely family that we reside in!
Irrespective of the fact, that we rarely communicate these days but still somewhere deep down my heart, you're always thought of, cared, missed, respected, adored and remembered!
I can't even begin to tell you that what you mean to me! Giving words to such thoughts would be like giving dimensions to my respect and feelings for you..
No matter how rarely we share our lives and talks these days, still you're someone whom I look upto in every sphere of my life..

I often address you by these funny names..Dad, Daddu, Pops, Popsy, Pa-pa,Pa and the likes,but trust me, nothing can beat the adrenaline rush in my heart when you call me 'Betu'. Its the best feeling in this world whwenever I get to hear such sweet adresses from you..I find myself smiling everytime you call me 'Aenu'..
Oh, that reminds me that how earnestly I want to thank you for giving me two of the best names in this world - Mohita & Aena! They are as unique and spelndid as you! I just love them!

Dad, you've given me every probable comfort in this world that I could have ever asked or desired for. And I mean it from the bottom of my heart, from the deepest core in my heart. Be it clothes, gizmos and gadgets, hefty pocket-moneys, lavish meals at fancy restaurants, fun-filled vacations, expensive Birthday parties, an envious lifestyle, everything. I know it would be stupid to say, but I won't really mind if life ahead gets tougher because you've already showed me the BEST times that I could have ever comprehended. Thanks for adding such wonderful times and memories to my life. They'll be cherished through out!

Sometimes when I find it difficult to sleep at night, I am often perturbed by the memories of some beautiful moments that we shared years ago. Memories of 'you & me' sharing some unforgettable times together!
I still remember them so precisely Dad, But do you?!!
Do you remember our balloon-fights, or our badminton-sessions, or the cycling rounds that we undertook..? Do you remember those aimless strolls that we undertook during late evenings in Jabalpur, when you held me by my shoulder walking by my side..How I blurted out everything concerning my life and friends during these walks..?!! Do you remember those crazy shopping times when we literally 'shopped till we dropped'..? I still remember that how you bought countless dresses for me in one single go a lot of times.. Do you remember our Remote-fights..with both of us yearning to take charge of the TV in lieu of catching up with our respective shows..? Do you remember how crazy it used to be, everytime we used to visit my school on the day of the results..with me clinging by your side, apprehensive about the awaited scores..and everytime we would come out beaming smiles with some great remarks and appreciations showered on us by my teachers, do you care to remember all these moments..?

Do you care to bother to relive those memories time and again..?!!
Atleast, I do and would continue doing them forever. Needless to say, they are truly the most prized possessions of my life..

Thank you Dad, for everything.
Despite the fact that I don't really express my feelings in front of you so often, yet I truly love and respect you from the bottom of my heart!
You're the BEST DAD in this world and I am proud to be your DAUGHTER!

(Sorry for a day's delay!!)

Untamed Friendships!

Hi Folks! This is a confessional post. So, incase you don't know me personally, there are probable chances of your getting bugged..

The fragility and unpredictability of friendships in the recent times takes its toll on me every now and then. I have had friends going through such rough times, succumbing to their after-effects effortlessly..

But now probably, its my turn to go through the same vicious circle of dwindling relationships!

Its always good to have friends but its even better to have 'good' friends. Contrary to my earlier notions, that there's always enough room for improvement during the friendship span, I now strongly detest and discard this myth!

People are bound to remain the same irrespective of the amount of love, care and affection that you shower on them. They are destined to show their true traits somewhere down the lane. And you just can't evade this reality. I have been lucky enough to have come across such people, this early in my life. Though I ended up learning this reality the hard way!

Its difficult in fact, its tormenting in the beginning to see some treasured relationships falling apart so easily. Its heartbreaking to realise that the good times spent together would never be created again nor would be the memories, that would continue to haunt your bereaved soul for days, months and years to come.

Yet, I wonder why I feel so relieved and rescued when I think about those memories, yes plain "memories"...I cann't tag them as 'unforgettables'! Rather some years down the lane, I would love to erase them from the spectrum of my memory , and would hate to relive them ever.

Dedicated to my life and friends in MCM!
My special thanks to all those people who made me tougher!
Trust me,your harassment brought the 'best' out of me!

Saturday, June 20, 2009

Isn't it amazing when you get to hear something good about yourself from someone whom you least expected?!!!

Well, it definitely is a pleasant surprise for someone super-sensitive like me!
Its reason enough for me to celebrate, and go around basking in the glory of that short-lived moment:)

Monday, June 15, 2009

Am I Content..?!!

Sometimes I find myself raising the same questions time and again..

Why am I becoming so self-obsessed?!
But then, is it really self-obsession or just a figment of my imagination?
I believe that its quite obvious for anyone of my age to spend some handsome amount of time and energy in pondering over the future course of life!
I guess so!

May be, its not an obsession any more.
May be, I might get over it in a couple of days. Even if I don't,what's the harm?
Its never bad investing some considerable amount of time in one's future!

For the time being,I am enjoying my stint as a Copy writer.
By the way, isn't it ironical that a copy writer is running short of time in updating her blog on a daily basis???!!!
I know, its highly embarrassing!! Trust me folks, I am all geard up for being a regular updater next time onwards. .At least,I am working on it. Don't really know, whether I would be keeping in sync with the aspirations or not!

All said and done,
I would just like to add that I just love writing!
No matter, how often or how rare..I just love coming back to this place time and again!

Sunday, June 7, 2009

Idyllic Ruminations !

It has been a hectic weekend! Yeah, Weeke-n-d!

Yes, even more hectic and troublesome than the rest of the week..
Truly speaking,I hated this week..I really did! It almost deprived me of my usual vitality and vigour, happiness and wittyness. In short, it deprived me of my TRUE self!

Frequent pangs of guilt, mistrust and dwindling self confidence finally took their toll on my health. Not to mention, the scorching heat of the summers that almost ruined my mood every single day. I just hope that it rains some time soon. I really do!

May be, the climate was in sync with my mood this very week. Undecided and tumultous, dejected and fickle-minded..I don't really know what actually made me feel so low but whatever it was, it definitely RUINED everything- my mood, my health, my professional efficiency, my reading habits and so on and so forth! I am in no mood of experiencing it in the near future!

But yes,it did teach me something valuable in the end. I learnt how important it is to have faith in one's principles and priorities. No matter what the rest of the world feels, one must never give up on one's virtues and choices. I also realised one more subtle truth of life. I realised that it is good to vocalise one's honest thoughts about others' once in a while..In fact, more than that, one must make conscious efforts to peep into the minds and hearts of others' and dig out some relevant information pertaining to one's self!

No harm in getting some cruel jolts, in the very first brush with reality.
Remember, its better LATE than Never!

Having said that, I wouldn't mind confessing that it was tough, immensely tough!
I hated it, every bit of it. And it did waver my self confidence to some extent in the incipient stages. Though it wasn't late when I realised that it's no point getting immersed in retrospection just because some Tom, Dick or Harry found my nature objectionable!
As if, I care!
In fact why should I?, when I know that I wasn't even wrong completely and yet had to bear the brunt of all those misinterpretations!

Any ways, I am happy that I am out of it now!
Though it was a journey worth remembering. A journey from despair to hope, from dejection to reassurance. Somewhere down the lane, it did help me fall in love with myself all over again:)

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

A token of Thanks!

This post is a dedication! I dedicate it to all those people who have been immensely supportive and affectionate to me, in the recent days.

Sometimes, the truth is too hackneyed for words!
Sometimes I find myself fumbling for the right words and expressions to express my heartfelt gratitude towards certain people who make every possible attempt to make my life a little more easier and happier:)

My life has taken a blind-turn in the last few days! I don't really know that where am I heading to? or, What would be my next destination?
All I know is, that I am moving on and on, at an increasingly nervous pace like a rudderless boat oblivious to its direction and destination!
Its high time that I seek rather sieze, the answers to the above raised questions yet I am too complacent to fish for the right answers at this point of time.

I don't even know whether what all I am writing makes any sense or not, yet in my heart of hearts I just want to go on and on...

Anyways, retreating back to the flavour of the post, I would like to mention the names of a few people who moved my heart due to their inexplicabe love, affection, care, concern, encouragement etc, in the last few days.

  • My humble love and apologies to Prats. I know that I haven't been good to you in the recent times. Yet, the blessions and affections that you showered upon me are remembered and cherished every single day! Words would fail to describe how much change,your efforts bring about in my life.
  • Loads of love to Mum, for understanding me and letting me take control of my life and its decisions. I'll be eternally greatful to you for all that you've done and for all that you would keep doing:)
  • Countless hugs to Megha, for adding a smile to my face every single day! Trust me, I've rarely come across a person like you (minus your PJ's) in my entire life,who so ardently believes in the ritual of Giving. Giving, in terms of love, time and space.
  • Sincere thanks to Nousheen, for her unconditional support and encouragement in the office.(Yes, I have recently started with my first job, ever!) Thanks for retaining your composure despite constant queries and bickerings on my part. They truly mean a lot, and would be cherished throughout!
  • A speck of thanks, yeah, just a speck of thanks to Hater!, for being a little more patient, nicer and composed off-late!
  • Loads of hugs and poochies to Kritika for being by my side emotionally 24*7!!! I truly admire your stoic approach towards life and hope to grab some of it in the coming future:)
  • A zillion thank you's to Kamal bhaiya in the office, for those unlimited refills of water in the tumbler placed next to my workstation. Every time he refills my tumbler, I am moved to mixed feelings of appreciation and pity.Thanks to him that my water intake has increased considerably, in resonance with my doc's advice. I might never express my gratitude to him in person, but I sincerely admire and appreciate his efforts!
  • Countless thanks to Mehak and Arsh for being by my side, on and off.

Saturday, May 30, 2009

Random Ruminations!

Sometimes, the harmony of life gets distorted by few trivial passing thoughts here and there.

Sometimes I get so intimately involved in the web of my personal priorities and issues, that i tend to sideline the clandestine developments taking place in the lives of those, around my vicinity. I sincerely fail to understand that why, Why do I do it, time and again?

Its just so disgusting! The feeling of being indifferent to people who help you get through the rough patches of your life. Its plain immodesty to overlook their emotional needs for compassion, refuge and guidance.

Its just so unlike-me,yet its becoming a facet of my personality with each passing minute!
Grr..What do I do?!!

Friday, May 29, 2009


Tagged by Ms.R

  • I am a dreamer chasing a zillion dreams twinkling in my eyes.

  • Soft music tranquilizes my hyperactive senses. My favourites include George Michael, A R Rehman, Enrique Iglesias, Britney, Shreya Ghoshal.

  • Its the trivial things in life that make me feel elated and blessed-rain showers, smell of brewing coffee, soft music, good books, heartfelt conversations.

  • I strongly believe that relationships are meant for a lifetime, and they come without expiry dates.

  • I am blessed with the power of superb sixth sense. It helps me get through most of the hardships in life.

  • As the years are dwindling by, I am becoming a little more inclined towards superstitious (only about a few things in life) though I wonder WHY?!!

  • Nothing peps up my mood more than the prospect of good food. Otherwise, I try satiating my desire with anything palatable.

  • I am a nocturnal being. I am a total midnight freak! I find it difficult to sleep before 12:00 AM , with a zillion thoughts crossing my mind, every now and then.

  • No matter how much hard I try, I seldom succeed in HATING anyone in the true sense of the word! My strongest emotions remain confined within the four walls of Dislike!

  • Given a chance (and the permission),I would love to spend my life in a monestary, walking on the path of spirituality.