Recollections..!

Proceeding with the same string of thoughts...

The wonderful memories of my college life shall always remain embedded in my soul..We shall remain united in thought, action and ailment..! My college life gave me many new reasons to smile..!! It introduced me to an entire unexperienced gamut of emotions..It endowed me with so many new chums..some of whom went on to become really special..!! Quite a lot of them.

It introduced me to an intricate web of interesting people..When I say interesting;I mean it in the literal sense.!! For instance,the functional english group..credited with the most eligible and scholarly students of the college,,undoubtedly, was a treat for the eyes..infact,,for the mind..because of the interesting mix of personalities that it harboured..We had a wonderful time interacting,,and exploring the various facets of each other's persona..

When we started out,,it was almost a Fiasco..but then,,before we could all realise ,the everyday motions of life took over. We began to fill the photo albums and create Memories..We began sharing secrets, and weaving dreams..We shared smiles and wiped away the tears..There was such an amazing chemistry between a few of us that the air seemed to crackle with electricity..!!We started venturing out of our cocoons and began exploring one another's realm....and ovr the minutes,weeks and years,,we built layers and layers of memories..! We started communicating in a non-verbal language consisiting of rolling eyes, shoulder shrugs and waving palms..From being perfect strangers ,,we became perfect friends..!!! Absolutely.."perfect friends" encapsulates it all.!

As nuggets of nostalgic reminiscences come forth,,memories touch the expanse of those countless moments spent together..Moments of those occassional laughters,,well-planned mass bunks,,falling out over trivial issues,,coffee breaks in winters,,bumping into each other in the library,,admiring one anothers attires,,accessories and handbags :),,sharing jittery nervousness in the examination halls,,chat sessions on orkut and facebook,,hunting foe notes,,late night sms's,,excitement during the festivities,,amazing group discussions,,discussion ovr those impending homeworks and projects,,And those countless occassions that moved us to laughter and tears......the list is Endless.!! When I look back and recollect those beautiful memories...They leave me Speechless.!

Lemme now introduce my Functional English or we fondly say,,Funky mates in a nutshell:) Our batch was a fascinating bunch of around 35 young ladies:) Here goes some interesting facets of their personalities...

Neha- Miss adorable,, cute, smart ..!

Anuradha- Aah,,she was undoubtedly,,"The Performer" of our group..Be it sports,,dramatics,,singing,,dancing..she is a bundle of talents..!! And surprisingly,,equally remarkable in studies as well.

Swati Paliwal- Shy, reserved . But endowed with a superb sense of self dignity and alienation from the rest. I wonder why she keeps underestimating herself,,all the time.??. In a few things,,she deserves my admiration.{Well,,this is a confession:)}

Sumiti - Sweet,, serene ,,"Miss Brainy of our class"... I admire here for her remarkable sense of simplicity and softness.

Pallivi - Gorgeous,, "Mistress of Killer looks"..

Natasha - Sweet, innocent, soft spoken but utterly Amazed , Dazzled and Confused with even the minutest familiarities of life..

Prigya - Chirpy, pretty, bubbly... Be aware here innocent looks are totally infectious and deceptive:) she's a sweetheart.. with well defined goals in life..I am sure she has a Long way to go,,in the judicial kingdom..!!

Sabrina - Prigya's roomie:)...SMART,, soft spoken..with an admirable dress-sense.

Mohita - Hey,,Don't you think that the self-congratulatory references to one's own achievements just don't spell class:)..!!! Kidding:)No descriptions regarding myself..Would deal with it ,,in detail,, some other time..

Prabhnoor - Intriguing,, smart,, bubbly.. We have been sharing a love-hate relationship over the years..Though i believe that love has finally taken over.. She is simply unpredictable...but bubbly otherwise.

Arpan - The newly wed damsel of our class.!! She is gifted with an attractive personality,, good communication skills...We missed you this year..Mrs. Arpan:)

Surbhi - Cute:)

Alisha - Sweet,, intelligent ,, chirpy..!!

Shruti - A great person at heart but hugely misunderstood.. Immensely emotional,, helpfull..A happy-g0-lucky kinda person..!! Love ya..!

Tanya - The fragile damsel of our class...Highly soft spoken and sophisticted..!

Aditi - Strong,tough, smart..with a peculiar sweetness..!! An amazing representation of a modern girl..!

Diksha - Sweet, reserved with a latent chirpiness..She mostly communicates with her "Colgate smile ".

Aishwarya - A beauty par excellence.. No further comments.

Priyanka - Perfect communication skills.,,intriguing personality.

Varsha - Simple...sweet,, diligent.. with an unbridled spirit to achieve Big in life..!! Sometimes,, I feel that she could be an excellent journo..!

Smriti - Adorable,, highly organised and sophisticated.. A perfect support system foe her friends..

Swati 2 - Pretty,, smart...(hey don't take it as "pretty smart").. with aspirations of achieveing Big..!! Endowed with a brilliant mind....though she doesn't takes it that seriously..I hope she does..! She is a complete sweetheart..with a potential of achieving mammoth success in future.

Zoya - Admirable,, reticent.."Miss Frankness"..I absolutely admire this trait of her's..!! She talks straight..No double standards..! A superb illustration of a true friend..

Aastha - Smart,, confident.. An amazing person to interact with.

Kanishka - Bubbly,, chirpy...the "teddy bear" of our class....extremely sensitive and emotional..A great person at heart..!

Niharika - Shy, serene...a silent observer.. Endowed with a beautiful personality.

Shweta - one of the most Interesting one ... she's the "Little Einstein" of our class...shes drives us crazy with her out-of-the-world questions.. Very emotional and affectionate..embodiment of unbridled vitality..and an urge to seek more. She has the confidence of facing even the most embaressing situations of life with an undeterred spirit. I Salute her for this..!!

No rhyme or reason..!!

Finally...the endless series of examz came to a subtle standstill..

Giving me reasons to relax and Breathe..!! Feeling so rejuvenated..

The Functional Viva was as rocking as expected....infact..a little Nostalgic too..

Brought back memories of the wonderful years that I had spent in this college..Perhaps,,these were the Last internals that we had..I would be passing out within a span of 3-4 months..leaving behind a trail of unforgettable memories..

I have had some really treasureable moments..

Love-hate relationships with friends.

Impeccable bonds with the teachers.

Indelible memories of cafetaria,,gymnasium,,rock climbing,,Functional english lab(My permanent Hideout),,the solitary swing,,vatika,,those intriguing cane-huts,,celebration grounds,,the library..

and Everything else that connected me with the college in ways more than one..

I had been dreading the Parting days since the very first year...bt the inevitable time beckons me now..

I have determined to face it boldly..bt I am aware that no amount of preparations,,rehersals or words would stand by my side when the Day would finally arrive..!!

It breaks my heart to contemplate about it..!

Aah..Why good things in life always come to an end..??!!!

No Room For PRETENSE...!

One thing that I probably Hate the Most in my little realm of kith n' kin,,is an omnipresent, all-pervading spirit of Pretense.
I hate it.!
I hate it from the deepest core of my heart.
Why do we blemish our treasureable possessions with nuances of sham/masquerade..??!!
Why do we inflict disgrace on them on the mere pretext of exhibiting superficial care n' concern for our loved ones.??
I don't want myself to make half-hearted attempts of providing false comforts to any one's ruptured soul in times of distress..
Trust me..Even if I take upon My case,,for instance,,
Nothing puts me off so overwhemingly, than a bogus n' flamboyant show of false praise/pity/comfort..by my loved ones.
I would rather appreciate their conduct,,if they stay at an arm's length n' let me oveercome the trials n' tribulations of life, in my own fashion.
Bt,,hey,,don't misconstrue my perceptions..!!
Don't think that I am oblivious to the cares n' affections of my friends, family n' well-wishers.
My thoughts are in absolute resonance with the warmth n' tenderness of their relationships.
I totally agree with the diffused reality that..
There's nothing more precious in the world than the feeling of being Wanted..!!

I'll miss you, Rucheera...

The sudden drought of emotions in my heart could convey perhaps, far more eloquently than the most flowery of words ...,the deep percolations of grief, agony n' restlessness that have probably cocooned the emotional hearth of my heart.

This is perhaps, the finest illustration of facing consecutive set-backs in my life,,that i've been accustomed to,,since the previous month..As very well explained in d preceeding post of this blog, exactly d same day of the previous month,,my world hd suddenly collapsed 2 pieces..!! Life seemed 2 have come 2 a standstill.

.Bt my emotional faculties came 2 my rescue,,fostering in me the courage 2 wage an irrevocable struggle against such adversities of life.
Once I decided 2 succumb 2 my inner faculties,,life seemed Easier,,infact,much Brighter n' Happier than before.! I fought back d distressing tymz n' came out laughin,,infact "guffawing" , at d trivial notions that hd been hovering around my mind in d former days. I decided 2 embrace life with an all-together new Vigour, Vitality n' Strength.

Life indeed, Smiled at me. All my snobbish hopes of denouncing d wordly affairs of friends n' peers, came dashing 2 d ground. Yet again, I succumbed 2 d humble, sincere n' honest affectations of friends n' dear ones. I was no longer d bereaved soul. The disturbing silence prevailing in d deep dungeons of my psychology was soon lost, amidst a cacophony of peers,( old,,best n' d new ones.!!).

Big Lesson Learnt..!!

Sometimes, the worst or the most agonising situations in life bring out the Best in us.Those few moments of extreme mental trauma,indeed, become the fondest memories of our moral valour and mental patience,and stability,,a few years down the line..!

What seem like countless moments of unsaid, unheard heart-aches, actually serve as stepping stones in helping us achieve the requisite mental constancy in such dreadfully distressing situations.I realise that its easier Said then Done but,the only way of combating n' coping with the most distressing phases in life is by fervently looking for the slightest possible speck of positivity even in the gloomiest of situations..

Its pretty futile, perishing away our time,energy and emotions in contemplating the probable causes n' consequences of such upsetting episodes.The superlative attempt of going outta such traumatic episodes is by shedding all the fears,frustrations,infuriations,emotions and even tears, in Solitude (rather than making a public display of personal catastrophes) and get away with those filthy feelings.
After all,the world wouldn't come to an end.Life would still embrace us with open arms.So,never mind,pull up your socks and, promise yourself to come out mentally n' emotionally Unaffected in case we encounter more emotional fiascos in our future endeavours..

If a supersensitive person like me,could do that.
I am sure you too can.!
I have decided to forgive her...
Rather, all I would like to convey and remember is...
"Thanks Sweety...For making me tough..!!"

My heart keeps pounding...

My heart keeps pounding with a gamut of emotions,
emotions of our relationship,
emotions of our togetherness,
such frenzied feelings would keep me occupied throughout my life,
for time blasting days, months, years n' In-shah-allah till eternity,
my heart keeps pounding all day long,
making me realise of temporary stay on this planet,
until my soul would fly off , to be reunited with you amidst the heavenly abode,
my heart gets shattered realising your painful and all-pervading absence,
piercing its broken pieces into my ruptured soul...

You made me realise...

You made me realise,,
those countless emotions cradled in the realms of my heart,
You made me realise,,
my true worth in the undisputed depths of my heart,
You made me look up at this world with an invincible spirit,
helped me peep into those deep dungeons ,
that lie hibernating beneath the crust of my heart,
You gave me an entirely new World to live in,,
fraught with aspiring fantacies n' cherishing dreams,
fraught with countless moments of girlish joys...
n' helped me construct a realm bestowed with my imaginary castles
and unfulfilled fantacies,,
You made me understand the true meaning of life..
Your presence transported me to a world of Utopia,
brimming over with friendship, care, warmth n' love,
You made me realise,,
the true persona of my inner self,
You made me become...
the one,i am today...!!

I hate this world...

Well, this was one of my first compositions , scribbled long ago, while I was probably in 7th standard..
The chief inspiration behind it was the initial outbreak of a dreadful era of horrifying Terrorism,,after the World Trade Centre's debacle.

" I hate this world,
but why do i hate it?
for its bountiful of sorrows,
and there are none willing to borrow,
Oh! my Lord, this earth is pityful,
but moreover, it's shameful,
its bountiful of wars and terrorism,
and its all due to man's religious fanatism,
Alas! man are blatantly blown and cut,
and surprisingly,our mouths are mum,and lips, shut
Oh! my Lord,why in this civilisation,
we have none for apologisation?
it is indeed, a matter of enormous pity,
for these great ,skyscraping and towering cities,
why don't the natives pause these fanatic culprits,
by arousing the humanitarian spirits,
I am sure a day is bound to be reached,
when these towering cities will crumple to a meagre beach,
deluged with the water of Humiliation,
finally putting an untimely end to this great civilisation..."

A tribute to Womanhood...

I wrote this one somewhere down 2004 when Congress President, Mrs. Sonia Gandhi emerged victorous amidst a huge political turmoil..I have never been politically inclined towards Congress but her unanimous triumph in the Union elections left me spellbound...and i just couldn't resist penning down my proud sentiments for this admiring lady.
Here it goes...

" She is an inspiration for women,
who elevated to power defeating all men,
she had a pitiable and painful history,
that turned her life into an unending mystery,
she fell in live and, married an indian,
and there off started a new life,
she lapped her husband's dying mother,
and earnestly supported him who had by then:
already lost his dearest brother,
she witnessed a new era of indian politics,
while her husband rose to power defeating all critics,
but yet again, she faced an assassination,
which put an end to all her fascinations,
she lost her loving husband and became a widow,
left behind with two growing kids coupled with past dreadful shadows,
she nurtured them well,
till they matured intelligently well,
and ultimately joined the indian politics on public demand,
with a dream of mustering Congress under her command...!!"

Encumbrance of a curtailed friendship...

This one was composed way back...while i was in my school ....for my one of my best friends,Tanvi.!!

"It's sad to see your dreams meeting a miserable end,,
specially those related to your Bestest friend,,
when the heaven resembles close to hell,,
despite all my strenuous efforts to tell,,
wanting you to recognise my true sincerity,,
that which you mistakened to be my impropriety,,
it's hard to see the two of us with anyone else,,
not with each other,but amidst everyone else,,
but,was this the only way to make each other incalculably sad..?
do we acknowledge our faults as so maculately bad,,

Regardless of all our efforts n' imploring deeds,,
and all our pending bashes n' treats,,
regardless of all those moments that we wished to spend,,
those that we regrettably never got to spend,,
despite, all the sufferings that we've faced,,
so intense,that would nevar wished to be retraced,,
regardless of all those feelings taht could never be unfolded,,
despite all those tears that we've been shedding for each other,,
and all those cards that had never been regrettably given,,
and all our mistakes,,which i know,,would never be forgiven,,
I still hope,,that an exquisite moment would come some day,,
which would shine through the divine ray,,
when we'll actually realise the depth of of our Friendship,,
and would blissfully revitalize our relationship..!!!

And it really really Did Happen.....!!!!!

One Single Step...

It's all about a single step to begin with,
its all about one single smile,to begin with,
its all about one single "Hi" to begin with,
its all about one single warm gesture to begin with,
it is indeed a game of primarily one single step,
but once initiated,it extends to a gamut of emotions,
it is all about making a New friend,
adding another name to our long list of friends
embellishing it all the more further.


A friend enters your life in the vein of a new hope,
with a promise of accompanying you in glitches too knotty to cope,
tries making you feel privileged,,wanted n' special,
she nurtures you in her own special ways,
with an amazing blend of affection,warmth,passion n' never ending cares
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