Random Ruminations!

Sometimes, the harmony of life gets distorted by few trivial passing thoughts here and there.

Sometimes I get so intimately involved in the web of my personal priorities and issues, that i tend to sideline the clandestine developments taking place in the lives of those, around my vicinity. I sincerely fail to understand that why, Why do I do it, time and again?

Its just so disgusting! The feeling of being indifferent to people who help you get through the rough patches of your life. Its plain immodesty to overlook their emotional needs for compassion, refuge and guidance.

Its just so unlike-me,yet its becoming a facet of my personality with each passing minute!

Grr..What do I do?!!

Tagged!

Tagged by Ms.R

• I am a dreamer chasing a zillion dreams twinkling in my eyes.

• Soft music tranquilizes my hyperactive senses. My favourites include George Michael, A R Rehman, Enrique Iglesias, Britney, Shreya Ghoshal.

• Its the trivial things in life that make me feel elated and blessed-rain showers, smell of brewing coffee, soft music, good books, heartfelt conversations.

• I strongly believe that relationships are meant for a lifetime, and they come without expiry dates.

• I am blessed with the power of superb sixth sense. It helps me get through most of the hardships in life.

• As the years are dwindling by, I am becoming a little more inclined towards superstitious (only about a few things in life) though I wonder WHY?!!

• Nothing peps up my mood more than the prospect of good food. Otherwise, I try satiating my desire with anything palatable.

• I am a nocturnal being. I am a total midnight freak! I find it difficult to sleep before 12:00 AM , with a zillion thoughts crossing my mind, every now and then.

• No matter how much hard I try, I seldom succeed in HATING anyone in the true sense of the word! My strongest emotions remain confined within the four walls of Dislike!

• Given a chance (and the permission),I would love to spend my life in a monestary, walking on the path of spirituality.

Still Life,on Pages...

Still stiffled by the lingering memories,

still blinded by the aura of those exquisite times,

still restless by your deafening silence,

I feel cluttered and claustrophobic,

leading this aimless life of nothingness,

still benumbed by your anticipated touch,

still enthralled by the sudden twist of fate,

still chased by the depressing nostalgia,

still dumbstruck by your harsh words,

I am still in awe with everything,

that concerns you and,

still at a loss to embrace this hard hitting reality,

of your undisputed absence in my little world!

P.S.-Dedicated to my dearie!! Just tried giving a few words to her thoughts!

In Pursuit of Happiness !

Prompted @ Tell a Tale.

As he opened his eyes in his lavishly-adorned,palitial bedroom on an early Sunday morning,he was startled to notice her unfamiliar absence by his side.

With half-opened eyes,he jumped out of his bed,and advanced towards the living room.Not finding here there,he got overpowered by a sense of anxiety.He called out for,in an audibly upsetting tone, "Madeline,where the hell are you,love?",as he made his way towards the guest room.His call was left unanswered.ating t

He was almost jolted out of his senses,when he did not find her there too. Feeling an adrenaline rush,he stood there for a moment,taking support from the bed-side table before retreating to their beloved bedroom.

Without giving a second thought,he hurriedly entered the room and approached her study table,as if driven by some divine intervention. Skimming through the contents of her expensive, sandalwood reading-table,his eyes fell upon a small note,addressed to him.Without wasting a second,he caught hold of it and opened the leaflet,that contained the following message written in her impressive handwriting:

"Happy Anniversary,William!

You've been a wonderful husband throughout.It was priviledge being your better-half.

But I guess,its time that I succumb to my inner voice.

I am leaving for my divine sojourn in the Himalayas,this morning!

You gave me everything,but I believe,that I now need a little more.I am leaving behind everything (that's you),in search of 'Moksha',my childhood desire and aspiration (as you already know.)

Hope,you would understand my quest for this spiritual accomplishment!

Yours in regret,

Madline"

He choked back silent tears as he finished her letter.Perhaps,these were the last words for him,from his beloved wife of 40 years!

Silence !

Prompted @ Tell A Tale

(The prompt was to write a story on the theme of 'silence.')

A beautiful Sunday morning!

The sky was slightly overcast with dull grey tufts of clouds.Mariel admired the sudden romantic mood of nature,while getting into the front seat of her rickety car.The poor thing was more than two decades old.It was almost on the verge of giving up,after long years of hard labour and rough handling.As Mariel settled in her seat,fixing her seat-belt ,she noticed David (who was on the wheels) murmuring something in his characteristic tone.

Not wanting to ruin her cheerful mood,she asked him gently,

"What is it,Davy?"

"Nothing.I am just sick of this old car.Want to get rid of it as soon as possible,but why would you care to help me? I am at a loss to understand why don't you just let me dispose it off?" he answered in an authoritative manner.

"Oh! Come on, love.You very well know how much this poor thing means to me,to us! It was in this very car,that we brought our newborn Mary to home from the maternity clinic.It is special for both of us! Isn't it?" She replied in a soothing tone.

"Yeah,yeah.I know.Thanks for reminding me time and again." His voice became softer,as he reached out for her hand,and gently placed his over hers.

Neither of them spoke a single word for the next few minutes.It seemed as if both of them were lost in their treasured memories.Then,just as they were about to reach the airport,David broke the unsettling silence,saying

"Lovely memories,aren't they?"

"Oh! Truly cherishing and simply unforgettable" she answered in a matter-of-fact manner.

He continued further,"Do you remember,how much Mary adored this car as a child? See,these lovely bells were hung by her,when she was just ten." He said,pointing towards the wind chimes,that werehanging on the rear-view mirror.

She reached out to caress them with her wrinkled hands, and said,

"It seems as if time just flew away.One moment,she was our beloved,little girl who couldn't imagine to stay away from us even for a minute,but now she has been living her life all by herself ,for the last 6months in her university hostel. Away from you,from me.Away from Us." At this moment stream of tears flew down her cheeks,as she continued,

"You know why I can't afford to part with this rickety car? Its because,somehow it keeps me connected with the nostalgic memories of my beloved daughter! Though I can't aford to keep her with me all my life,atlaest I can derive some amount of solace,by treasuring a few of her childhood memories through this dumb and good-for-nothing car! We brought her Home in This!" Just then,she felt his left hand on her drooped shoulder,gently caressing it.

This sweet gesture conveyed his silent approval of her heartfelt decision.Wiping away her tears,with an incipient smile on her wrinkled face,she said mockingly,

"See,you made me cry yet again and,the tears ruined my eye make-up! Now would you mind lending me your prized hankerchief,so that I could fix up my make-up?"

Without uttering a single word from his mouth,he passed on his crisp,white hankerchief to his lady-love,and smiled back.

They enjoyed the rest of their journey,in an air engulfed in a beautiful silence!

Is this what we call, "Love"??

Sometimes when I see around,looking at my friends,cousins and other unknown youngsters of my age,I am often intrigued. each of them has an all together different woe to share.I find them lonely, even amidst a hoard of friends,family and teachers. Though,these innocent young minds are still standing at the thresholds of manhood/womanhood,yet all of them have already had their share of grown-up experiences.Even within the tender age group of 16-21,all of them have already "loved and lost" atleast once in their lives,to say the least!

The fragility of human relationships gives a serious jolt to my innocent dispositions every now and then.Its just so disgusting. Isn't it?

Well,I am certainly not against the whole circle of loving and being loved. Love is undeniably,the most beautiful relationship that anyone can ever get into.But what makes me surprised,is the misinterpretation concerning love,rampant among the young hearts.

Love is not just a "Boyfriend-girlfriend" relationship! (By the way,the entire notion behind the bf-gf concept among todays's youth is ample enough to send a shiver down Adam-Eve's hearts!)

Love doesn't gives the license to play with your lover's heart,emotions and life. Its certainly not just about sending perennial text messgaes to your so-called soulmate or, constantly buzzing him/her esp at the odd hours of the day.Its not about exchanging roses and love-letters,and keeping fake Karwachauths(yes,FAKE!!!) in lieu of getting expensive gifts in return from your so-called hubby-to-be. Its even more disgusting to see some foolish girls breaking the sanctity of this esteemed custom,without even knowing a speck about its essence.I believe,its no less than a sacrilage!

Love is not about roaming hand in hand along the lake-side,just to exhibit a public display of your love.Its not about going for shopping together,expecting your lover to reimburse your extravagent bills.Its certainly not about checking out the fancy restraunts together, and then skimming through their fancy menu cards to lay hands on the most pocket-friendly platter.Its not about going on long drives playing ear-blasting music(in open jeeps,fancy cars) disrupting the traffic by rash driving.

My question is,Do we really need love at this stage of life.?

Is it even required?

Is it right to go through the trauma of heartbreaks and breakups, at the very onset of teenage?

By doing so,aren't we demeaning the sanctity of love?

Well,my answer to this would be,Yes. We certainly are depriving love of its natural charm and poise! It is really easy getting hooked with someone,but its inexplicably tougher to carry forward the relationship with a balanced amount of grace and dignity.In today's fast moving world,its not tough 'finding love',there are so many hungry hearts around ,yearning for love.But isn't it unfair,to get involved with someone,just for the sake of it?

How can you push yourself to love just about anyone or anybody who comes your comes your way? For what?

Just to please your peers,or your so-called 'deserted soul',or,just to showcase yourself as an eye-candy for others?

What makes life more tragic are,the abrupt decisions that we youngsters take in order to get rid of these relationships! No wonder,'break-ups' are the talk of the day.We find it so easy to put an end to these once-so-precious (now-not-so-precious) relationships,without even realising the consequences.Do we? Don't we?

I am sorry,if my write-up causes displeasure to any of you reading this.I wrote this,keeping in mind a veri special friend, who is having a hard time,dealing with her 'break-up'.

Dearie,don't loose hope.If He is the 'one',the 'One' meant for you, he would eventually come back or,rather you would give him a chance to prove his mettle.For the time being,let life take the best decision for both of you.Stop fretting over it!

Its neither your Loss,nor his Gain!

As I said earlier,Time is the most potent healer in the entire Kayenaat.Give your relationship some time.Just let time slip by.Eventually,it would bring out the answers to all your queries!

Let destiny and time weave their magic in your life!

Bloom again,to life.

Don't loose hope.As I often say,

Stay calm,

'The worst is yet to come'.

Marriage Bliss!

This post is dedicated to my friend,Soumya.
Just a few days before,she rang up in lieu of informing me about her wedding! I was swept off the floor on receiving this sudden news,to say the least.
Here goes a tiny message to her:

Girlie, I may not have reciprocated the love and warmth that you showered upon me, overwhelmingly.But just take it for granted,that I do love you (I really do!) and shall always be there to guide you through adverse times.Don't forget, I am just a call away!

Congratulations,for the wedding.
May the two of you be together, till eternity!
Here goes a small poem, as my tribute to your wedding:



(The) most memorable institution created by mankind,that

arouses nostalgic memories of a beautiful past,

rekindles glittering hopes of a golden future ahead,

reaffirms our faith in the eternal unity of the two souls,and

immaculately binds them in a relationship of a lifetime,

adorable,enchanting and alluring as ever,it

guarantees the onset of a beautiful journey,fraught with

exquisite experiences of countless yesterdays,todays and tomorrows.